Share – Have your ever been at a time in your life in which you felt a restlessness stirring inside you and if it was not honed properly, would bring you additional pain? After my eighteen year old son’s sudden death, I became aware  of my inability to sit still and be present. This uneasiness caused me to reflect on coping tools that I cultivated at another time in my life in which it was literally difficult to put one foot in front of the other. Twenty-seven years ago, I had so much pain in my knees and thought I would not make it through the lingering aches that were manifesting. I was in college at the time with dreams of becoming a journalist, but after five attempts at the writing skills test, I was forced to change majors. After consulting the advisor it was decided that based on my abilities and interests, the best degree that I could pursue which would not require math was Visual Communications.

Majoring in the arts was not a vision that I had; however, I can see that it was the best thing for me at the time as I learned that creating cultivates healing. I now reflect on how graphic design helped me deal with my physical ailments as I was learning problem solving skills. I was in great physical distress and I found art as a more optimistic way to handle my woes. Making things has helped me to deal with my struggles as it has been cathartic to create something beautiful in spite of how I was feeling at the time. I set out to find a way to distract myself from my discomfort and discovered that a creative spirit was hidden in me. Turning my negative into something positive gave me hope that I would overcome my obstacles.

Grounding Scripture – Psalm 147:3 “He heals the broken-hearted and bandages their wounds.”

Insights – When I first started to create, God showed me that working with my hands was restorative for my body, mind and spirit. When I think back to the beginning of time, the Lord demonstrated his craftiness by creating all things, and since we are in his image it would only make sense that we too were designed to create. I marvel at how man, the animals and nature were orchestrated in such a manner that everything worked together, and in my troubles I have found comfort in that truth. I have been intrigued that when God finished his creations, He exclaimed that it was good. In doing so, He demonstrated the need to be productive and to give praises for being able to do so.

Prayer – Lord, Thank you for ways to express myself and for Your inspiring words. Drawing, painting and writing have taught me how to take discontentment manifested in my mind and funnel it into activities that produce “good fruit” by blessing others. I give You the gratitude through my creative expression as I work out my stressors on paper. Help me to shut down the noise of my brain while expressing myself in artistic mediums and  to be aware of Your presence as I take to the page. I am aware that I am making progress if I am moving forward on the mountain of mourning. I am asking for the courage to take pen to paper, put a paint brush to canvas or gather flowers to plant in a garden in order to heal, hope and honor You.

Copyright 2017, Deana McGarr